Josh’s Random Non-Sense!

I can’t believe it’s over! It seemed like the rehearsal for graduation was longer than the actualy thing!?!

I will admit that at times during Amy, Xue, Phillip, and Ms. Broyles’ speaches I got teary-eyed. It’s so very hard to get over the fact that I’m done with high school. It’s all over. NO MORE! It just doesn’t seem real … I feel that at any moment I will wake up from my dream … and continue my daily routine of going to that same building bright and early at the crack of dawn.  6 years I followed that routine … and it’s gonna be hard to break, and I will miss people. But at the same time I am more than ready to leave. I feel like I’ve been ready for college for the past 6 months or more … and more importantly, I’m ready to be there!

I’ll miss a lot about MLK … like some of the students … a select few of the teachers … and NONE of the administrators (now that they have all changed) … but there are some people and things that I am more than ready to distance myself from. And I do realize that college life will probably be a whole lot worse in this aspect, but that doesn’t mean that I have to like it right now. I have a major issue with people getting drunk and going to parties where their only intentions are to get "crunk" or high as a kite. Too many times have people become injured in some way, or even died as a direct result of such things. Yet at the same time, I hate feeling like I just making myself the loner … being the only one who doesn’t go to these things. I don’t know … it just bothers me. And whatmore, it bothers me that some of my close friends keep pestering me to come to these "awesome crunk fests" and join in on the fun. Guy and I are the only two in our crew that opt out of the crunk-life. 

Yay for us!

 I think I’m going to get my Yearbook and Diploma on Monday … because I am most definitely sleeping in tomorrow. To all of my good friends out there that I will no longer see or talk to, just know that I will miss you all. And to the ones that were assholes to all of us for six straight years … well you know where you can go

My mom, dad, sister, and sister’s boyfriend (Dave) went to P. F. Changs for dinner after graduation. It was delicious! It was quite the momentous occasion for my mom and dad to both be at a dinner table together and invoking in conversation … I kind of liked it (past the awkwardness).

That’s it for now … When I get some pictures I’ll post them up, of course

See you all at our reunion!!!

-Josh 

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Only 4 Days , 22 Hours,  23 Minutes,  and 25 seconds until GRADUATION!!!

 YAYNESS!

 and only two more exams to go … Engineering and Art History … both of which I could do with my eyes closed.

 I’m at work right now … on my lunch break (which is almost over) … I’ve almost made enough money to pay off my new PowerBook! (I think that they paycheck that I’m going to pickup today will finish off my debt!!!) That’s friggin’ awesome!

 Gotta go,

-Josh 

I find it funny how they call it "Free" Response. It’s anything but "free." 

AP Calculus … whatever will I do if I don’t get a 3 or above ???

I was at school yesterday reviewing with Ms. Sefton from 3 - 5pm!!! That has to be worth something, right? 

Not just for the money, I’m going to have to take A LOT of math in college … so if I’ve just ended up with a year of practice in Calculus … I’m going to be very pissed.

Julie and I left after the test … we debated on whether or not to stay at school or not … not too sure how it’s going to end up like tomorrow … but I really don’t care. We got back right after lunch was over … how would we be expected to finish the day without food? Whatever. We went to Schlotzsky’s Deli for lunch … and it was tasty. And I ate all of my food!!!

 My AP Physics test is on Monday. I know for sure that that won’t be fun at all. Even less than Calculus was. I have to work all weekend … no time to study … I’m not too sure what I’m going to do about that …

I’m gettin’ sleepy now … and it’s about to rain … hard.

Night all,

-joshie poo  

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This is it, it’s almost over!
I feel like I should be sad … and in a very small way I am, only because of the handful of people that I’m leaving that I actually care about … on the otherhand, I just can’t wait to get away from the rest of the people here in Nashville. Honestly, TTU isn’t far enough away for me … but I guess I’ll take what I can get.
I don’t think that this whole “graduation” thing has set-in for most of us yet … I can hardly believe that Senior Week, Prom, etc. are already done and over with. I thought that this stuff would be so much more momentous. But maybe it has been and I just haven’t realized it yet. Maybe I’ve been just too caught up in being mad/sad at life that I’m missing out on the best part of being a Senior, the last month.
AP Tests are just around the corner … the AP Calculus test is only like 10 days away … and that’s not nearly enough time to prepare myself. Not to mention AP Physics and Economics. geez.

It’s really almost over.
-josh

I haven’t written a post in a while, so I thought that it was about time …

It saddens me that Senior Week and Prom have already come and gone … I never would have thought that they would just have ended so quickly … I wish we could do it all over again … that would be absolutely amazing … and the fondue fountain … that was just spiffy!
Prom pics can be found over at my textamerica site. It was a fun night …

I’ve been extremely busy lately with tennis (almost 4 matches a week), insane amounts of AP Physics work, and trying to finish our engineering project (to no avail).
What a hard week this has been, and to make things even worse … AP tests are soon! AAAHHHH!
Not to mention the fact that I also have to take exams in (i think) all my classes … (this is still be “figured out” right now).

Then on the weekends, all I’m doing is working. It’s good money, but with everything else … it sure doesn’t leave me any free time. I miss just being able to sit around and relax, all day long. *sigh*
That’s life I guess …

Here I come college, here I come …

Nobody cares.
I don’t even care anymore.
In fact, I’m beginning to believe that I actually deserve it … everything.
I found out today that I have to take exams for ALL of my classes, APs included. That means I have six exams to worry about now … plus the three AP tests. Can you say SHIT?
I’m so angry right now.
It all just seems so amazing. If I had been Davin, and had known how everything would have worked out … I probably would have done it too. I mean, why not? If the racist principal in on your side, then sure, GO FOR IT. As a Junior, three days suspension is just vacation; he’d have to take all of his exams regardless. But for me, any day of suspension or absense could mean I have to take my non-AP exams. But today, today I found out that I not only have to take the regular exams (3), I have to take AP exams as well (3 more). HOW THE FUCK DOES THAT WORK?
9 tests.
ZERO fairness.
I’m writing some really nasty letters over Spring Break. Right now I’m not so sure what they’ll say. I know I’ll include something like “In my mind Davin got off scot-free, and the administration backs that up all the way. Obviously punishing the person that gets faught instead of the one doing the fighting makes perfect sense. Because of that apparent fact, I’m afraid to even come near anyone in the hallways now. This situation shows any jerk out there that there is little to no punishment involved in knocking someone out; in fact, the person you beat the shit out of will be punished more that you will! The administration has failed to make me feel safe at school. I mean seriously, why wouldn’t he do it all over again?”

SHIT

I think I could blowup … and no one would notice … in fact, I think some people would be grateful. Way to go guys, you really did your job. I hope this makes everyone happy.
I need help. I see no reason to continue my life at a school that doesn’t give a damn about its honest, trustworthy, Christian students. But to all those in a gang, go to MLK … the administration approves.

I need someone to pray for me, because it’s obvious that my own prayers just seem to make everything worse. And Lord knows that talking to someone else about a recent occurnce is just wrong, I should just accept everything as it comes … never question authority … and never question life. I should just give up entirely.

You know what?
I will … I give up. Anything and everything. What’s the purpose? What’s the reason? continuing on this path will get me no where … in fact, trying to do and be good is deadly (literally).

I give up.

I become bored the longer I sit here, just waiting. For what you ask? Well … for my b-e-a-utiful Julie! (duh) I came over to her house today after school today, but she had dance at 6pm … so I thought that I’d just wait for her to get back home … because I definitely didn’t get to spend enough time with her, and she’ll be at dance tomorrow as well ☹
To pass the time, I went to Sonic and got me one of those chicken toaster sandwiches and a M&M blast. They were yummy. I’m kind of glad that I brought my PowerBook to school today (for engineering) … because otherwise, I would be overly bored out of my mind right now. I’ve been sitting in my car for the past two hours! She said that it would end at about 7 or 7:30 … on both accounts she was wrong ☹
I miss my Julie!

So yesterday on the way home from school I was just driving on the interstate, minding my business … and then I saw something fly by my window and bang into my door. I was like “what the crap!?!” Then after a few seconds of trying to figure out what exactly it was that hit my door, I figured it out. As I looked over in my side mirror to see if I could tell if there was any marks on my door … I realized that IT WASN’T THERE ANYMORE! I thought that I was going crazy for a second. I did one of those double-take thingies … I’m not exactly sure what I’m going to be able to do about it. Of course I need a new mirror, but how does one get a new one (without paying an arm and a leg)? Can I just glue it on? Cuz I know that there weren’t any screws going through it …
Weird.

I’m not sure how much longer my butt can take the sitting and waiting. I kinda want to go home, but then at the same time I’d much rather be here instead (even though Julie isn’t here). I know that she’ll get sad if I leave, but I don’t know much longer I can stay with or without her. Poo.

I think the preliminaries for the assault case begin tomorrow. That should be interesting. And I’ve recently found out that I will, in fact, have to go on the stand and do all that crap. My dad and the D.A. said that I really shouldn’t have to (about 2 weeks ago). This whole thing continually makes me insanely MAD! It feels like I’m getting punished much more than he is, when he left without any pain (emotional, physical, mental, etc.). How is this fair? Oh wait, that’s right … IT’S NOT!
I hope that something will be accomplished tomorrow … in my mind, accomplishing anything just means that people don’t harp on the fact that I touched his backpack (because obviously that calls for an insane reaction and blood). Will justice ever be achieved in my mind? I doubt it. The only way I think I’ll be happy (as happy as I can get) is for me to be able to be exempt from my exams. I’m really not supposed to be talking about that, but at this point I don’t see how it can hurt anything … especially when they have no intentions on actually helping me out in that situation. All they said was, “just keep doing what you’re doing, Josh.” (referring to my grades and attendance). My only response to that was, “Why?” Obviously it doesn’t make a difference at this point, now does it?

Well I’m getting tired of typing, and I think that I’m about to call Julie and leave her a message apologizing for leaving … but it’s 8:07pm … and I need to get home …
Adios all,
-Josh