What does it take to be happy? Truly happy?
Where does this answer lie? Is it religion … family … friends … money … relationships … ???

I’m so very tired of my life … I’m so confused … I think I know of something that I can do that may (in the long-run) make me and others a little happier. Sometimes I feel as though I have the weight of the world on my shoulders … and for the past couple of days I’ve felt as though that may also be literal. I feel like complete and utter crap, in every possible meaning.

I just hope that the decision I make won’t ruin others lives like I’m afraid it’ll end up ruining mine. I’m sorry for having to be so broad, but this is obviously a delicate matter.

I wish my life would just be a little bit easier … something that maybe I could actually handle without going crazy — I miss being happy … :’(
I think I’m going to go try and cry myself to sleep … and attempt to pray.

Good night cruel, unforgiving world … something tells me that you’ll be just a heartless and uncaring when I awake tomorrow … and as usual, it will always continue to get worse.

-Joshua Clayton