Nobody cares.
I don’t even care anymore.
In fact, I’m beginning to believe that I actually deserve it … everything.
I found out today that I have to take exams for ALL of my classes, APs included. That means I have six exams to worry about now … plus the three AP tests. Can you say SHIT?
I’m so angry right now.
It all just seems so amazing. If I had been Davin, and had known how everything would have worked out … I probably would have done it too. I mean, why not? If the racist principal in on your side, then sure, GO FOR IT. As a Junior, three days suspension is just vacation; he’d have to take all of his exams regardless. But for me, any day of suspension or absense could mean I have to take my non-AP exams. But today, today I found out that I not only have to take the regular exams (3), I have to take AP exams as well (3 more). HOW THE FUCK DOES THAT WORK?
9 tests.
ZERO fairness.
I’m writing some really nasty letters over Spring Break. Right now I’m not so sure what they’ll say. I know I’ll include something like “In my mind Davin got off scot-free, and the administration backs that up all the way. Obviously punishing the person that gets faught instead of the one doing the fighting makes perfect sense. Because of that apparent fact, I’m afraid to even come near anyone in the hallways now. This situation shows any jerk out there that there is little to no punishment involved in knocking someone out; in fact, the person you beat the shit out of will be punished more that you will! The administration has failed to make me feel safe at school. I mean seriously, why wouldn’t he do it all over again?”
SHIT
I think I could blowup … and no one would notice … in fact, I think some people would be grateful. Way to go guys, you really did your job. I hope this makes everyone happy.
I need help. I see no reason to continue my life at a school that doesn’t give a damn about its honest, trustworthy, Christian students. But to all those in a gang, go to MLK … the administration approves.
I need someone to pray for me, because it’s obvious that my own prayers just seem to make everything worse. And Lord knows that talking to someone else about a recent occurnce is just wrong, I should just accept everything as it comes … never question authority … and never question life. I should just give up entirely.
You know what?
I will … I give up. Anything and everything. What’s the purpose? What’s the reason? continuing on this path will get me no where … in fact, trying to do and be good is deadly (literally).
I give up.
