So Winter Break is almost over and I wish that it would last forever (don’t we all). These past couple of weeks have been very hard on me. Most of the time I’m so stressed out about everything that it tends to transfer in places where it shouldn’t. Sometimes part of this goes toward either my mom or my dad, and other times it transfers to Julie. I hate this more than I hate anything else in life. Sometimes I just end up losing control entirely and just let loose. I just get so depressed sometimes that I don’t feel like living anymore, I just don’t know what to do. My actions tend to suprise me sometimes; it’s really weird. A lot of times I really just don’t know how to explain what I mean by saying this. A lot of times I don’t really think that anyone will care, and if they do I won’t be able to properly tell them what I mean by it. Honestly, I don’t even know what to type. I don’t know how to tell anyone. Many times I just get so angry at myself for what I do, for the actions I make.
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