So … after longs amounts of conversations with everyone (family and friends) … things have gotten better. My dad gave me an ulimatum … i had to choose by last night where I was going to stay (with him or my mom). That put a lot of stress on me (more than before, if that’s possible). After a lot of thought … a lot of crying … and a lot of helpful hugs (curtosey of juuulie) … I made a decision. If I stayed with my dad, I couldn’t go back to my mom’s house (to live) because of child support reasons (it’s difficult to explain) … and if I went back to my mom’s house, it would kill my dad emotionally (not to mention my mom would never truly forgive me). So … I chose to stay with my dad. It’s only about 9 months, at the most. It’ll be hard to accept the changes … and what has happened … and what all I did and said … and how much it hurt me and everyone around me … but now (hopefully) it’s over (for the most part).

My dad (along with my grandfather) is going to work on getting me a better car. The transmission on it is starting to die … and leaking fluid faster than ever before. It’s becoming a risk to drive … and it’s no longer “dependable.” The check engine soon light is on now … it won’t go away. :(

Thanks for all the talks and hugs and help. It has truly helped calm me (I’ve never cried so hard :’( …)

-josie poo

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