Josh’s Random Non-Sense!

I’m probably just messing around with something new … but I’ve found a new site/look that I wanna play around with for a little while (because changing this one is a heck of a lot of work)
Take a look:

CLICK HERE TO VISIT IT!

Please and thank you!

-Josh

What does it take to be happy? Truly happy?
Where does this answer lie? Is it religion … family … friends … money … relationships … ???

I’m so very tired of my life … I’m so confused … I think I know of something that I can do that may (in the long-run) make me and others a little happier. Sometimes I feel as though I have the weight of the world on my shoulders … and for the past couple of days I’ve felt as though that may also be literal. I feel like complete and utter crap, in every possible meaning.

I just hope that the decision I make won’t ruin others lives like I’m afraid it’ll end up ruining mine. I’m sorry for having to be so broad, but this is obviously a delicate matter.

I wish my life would just be a little bit easier … something that maybe I could actually handle without going crazy — I miss being happy … :’(
I think I’m going to go try and cry myself to sleep … and attempt to pray.

Good night cruel, unforgiving world … something tells me that you’ll be just a heartless and uncaring when I awake tomorrow … and as usual, it will always continue to get worse.

-Joshua Clayton

The answer to this question?
Everything.

I’m completely lost now. About two weeks ago (more or less) my dad and I managed to get into another major quarrel and because I’m just not in the mood to go over every single little detail right now I’m just going to give you all the “small” version.

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I can’t believe it’s over! It seemed like the rehearsal for graduation was longer than the actualy thing!?!

I will admit that at times during Amy, Xue, Phillip, and Ms. Broyles’ speaches I got teary-eyed. It’s so very hard to get over the fact that I’m done with high school. It’s all over. NO MORE! It just doesn’t seem real … I feel that at any moment I will wake up from my dream … and continue my daily routine of going to that same building bright and early at the crack of dawn.  6 years I followed that routine … and it’s gonna be hard to break, and I will miss people. But at the same time I am more than ready to leave. I feel like I’ve been ready for college for the past 6 months or more … and more importantly, I’m ready to be there!

I’ll miss a lot about MLK … like some of the students … a select few of the teachers … and NONE of the administrators (now that they have all changed) … but there are some people and things that I am more than ready to distance myself from. And I do realize that college life will probably be a whole lot worse in this aspect, but that doesn’t mean that I have to like it right now. I have a major issue with people getting drunk and going to parties where their only intentions are to get "crunk" or high as a kite. Too many times have people become injured in some way, or even died as a direct result of such things. Yet at the same time, I hate feeling like I just making myself the loner … being the only one who doesn’t go to these things. I don’t know … it just bothers me. And whatmore, it bothers me that some of my close friends keep pestering me to come to these "awesome crunk fests" and join in on the fun. Guy and I are the only two in our crew that opt out of the crunk-life. 

Yay for us!

 I think I’m going to get my Yearbook and Diploma on Monday … because I am most definitely sleeping in tomorrow. To all of my good friends out there that I will no longer see or talk to, just know that I will miss you all. And to the ones that were assholes to all of us for six straight years … well you know where you can go

My mom, dad, sister, and sister’s boyfriend (Dave) went to P. F. Changs for dinner after graduation. It was delicious! It was quite the momentous occasion for my mom and dad to both be at a dinner table together and invoking in conversation … I kind of liked it (past the awkwardness).

That’s it for now … When I get some pictures I’ll post them up, of course

See you all at our reunion!!!

-Josh 

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Only 4 Days , 22 Hours,  23 Minutes,  and 25 seconds until GRADUATION!!!

 YAYNESS!

 and only two more exams to go … Engineering and Art History … both of which I could do with my eyes closed.

 I’m at work right now … on my lunch break (which is almost over) … I’ve almost made enough money to pay off my new PowerBook! (I think that they paycheck that I’m going to pickup today will finish off my debt!!!) That’s friggin’ awesome!

 Gotta go,

-Josh 

I find it funny how they call it "Free" Response. It’s anything but "free." 

AP Calculus … whatever will I do if I don’t get a 3 or above ???

I was at school yesterday reviewing with Ms. Sefton from 3 - 5pm!!! That has to be worth something, right? 

Not just for the money, I’m going to have to take A LOT of math in college … so if I’ve just ended up with a year of practice in Calculus … I’m going to be very pissed.

Julie and I left after the test … we debated on whether or not to stay at school or not … not too sure how it’s going to end up like tomorrow … but I really don’t care. We got back right after lunch was over … how would we be expected to finish the day without food? Whatever. We went to Schlotzsky’s Deli for lunch … and it was tasty. And I ate all of my food!!!

 My AP Physics test is on Monday. I know for sure that that won’t be fun at all. Even less than Calculus was. I have to work all weekend … no time to study … I’m not too sure what I’m going to do about that …

I’m gettin’ sleepy now … and it’s about to rain … hard.

Night all,

-joshie poo  

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To My Dearest Bailey, who is now in kitty heaven.
:’(

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